Thursday, May 3, 2012
Look at Me Now..
My weight has been an issue since Reagan was in office. My mom put me on a Weight Watchers diet when I was in third grade. I look back at pictures of myself as a third grader and I see a normal sized little girl, I wasn't skinny or lanky by any means, but I definitely didn't need to go on weight watchers. I always felt like I wasn't good enough because of the way I looked. My brother always ridiculed me by calling me names like "fatty" or "big fat pound mound." I quit taking tap dance (which I loved) because another girl told me that I looked fat in my leotard.
I reached my (non-pregnant) biggest when I was 24 or 25. So that awful picture of me at the top, isn't even me at my biggest. My husband, Geoff, my daughter, Shaylee (then an infant,) and I were living in a small town in Michigan, I didn't have very many friends and I felt isolated.. and surprise surprise I am an emotional eater.. and an oven full of baking cookies kept my little house warm in the long winters.
After my son was born, I decided I had to do something for the sake of my kids. I didn't want to pass down my issues, and bad eating habits to my kids. I didn't want them to struggle and hurt like I did, I wanted to do all I could for them and be all I could be for them. I grew up eating fast food or processed boxed food, and it had such negative effects on the way I looked, and the way I felt about myself, and I didn't want to raise my kids eating the same way I did. People always ask me how I lost the weight.. and the answer is, "I simply changed my life." First, I got really happy with myself on the inside, and found confidence on who I was and not what I looked like. Then, exercise and healthy eating is the way to go.
The trick to success is to NOT GO ON A DIET. Going "on" something means that probably you will go "off" sometime. You have to change the way you live and eat and never go back. Sure, I will have an occasional cookie or cupcake and enjoy some good ice cream from time to time; but my eating habits as a whole are NOTHING like they were when I was 25. I try to exercise for an hour at least 4 days a week-. Exercise can be fun, I Jazzercise and I LOVE it. I had to change my mindset about exercise.. from something that was a chore, to something that was a special time for me to focus on me. Maintaining weight loss is just as much work as loosing it.
The thing is, if I can do this, then ANYONE can! Never tell yourself that you can't. Yes, its hard. Yes its a big commitment, but it can be done.